I'm settling into my new life pretty nicely. I'm still getting used to living alone. I like it most of the time. I like having everything the way I want it. (Because I'm kind of a control freak.) I still get spooked at night sometimes.

I found a job, although I haven't started it yet. It's a job working full time at the box office of a theatre close to my apartment where they do magic shows. The season doesn't start until the beginning of March, so until then I'm kind of going to be sitting on my ass. I should be looking for a second part-time job, I know, but I don't want to start my job and then just be completely overwhelmed with work. So I think I'll wait until I start my job and then see.

I am excessively lonely. I'm spending all day, almost every day by myself. The exception is Sunday at church and Wednesday at choir practice. It's driving me crazy. But I'm not sure what to do until I start work. I might just have to suck it up.

My heart is really heavy with something today. And I wish I could talk about it, get it off my chest. But I can't. Bad things will happen if I blog about it. It doesn't have anything to do with me. Don't worry about me. But just...pray for the things that are on my mind and heart today. Please.

I discovered a new TV show last night. I was up late for no good reason other than I just didn't feel like going to bed. I was channel flipping and came across this show on MTV called "The Buried Life." Now, I know MTV, it's probably trashy, blah blah. But it's not. It's the complete opposite of trashy. These guys travel around in this huge RV trying to cross things off of their "bucket list," the list of things they want to do before they die. They just travel around meeting people and doing crazy awesome stuff.

But the best part is, for every one thing they try to cross off their list, they help someone else try to cross something off theirs. Like this one episode I saw last night. They met this artist in Dallas who hadn't seen his son for 17 years. The thing he said he wanted to do before he dies is see his son. So these guys found his son, and helped reunite them.

This show might be my new obsession.

I had a job interview today at a very nice, rather high-end retail outlet store. The interview went really well. The manager even said she really liked me. We got along really well. But then at the end of the interview, she told me that last week her district manager came to visit and told her that she was overstaffed.

I was really gracious and nice and appreciative. I thanked her for her time and said all the right things, but on the inside, my blood was boiling. I am so angry. If she knew she was overstaffed and couldn't hire me, why did she bother to interview me?! I can't figure out a logical explanation for this.

I got all excited only to get a HUGE let-down. I am so pissed.