I'm not ready.

I'm not ready for graduation. In so many different ways. I'm nowhere NEAR having my projects and papers done.

I'm also not ready to be graduated, to be a college graduate, to be an "adult," whatever that means. I don't know where my life is supposed to go. I don't know where I'm supposed to go. I have a few different options, geographically that would all hold great possibilities for me. But I don't know which one to choose. I really need some guidance here, God. Help me out, please?

And...this week my ex re-friended me on Facebook. And I'm not sure if I'm ready for this. I realize it's only facebook, and facebook friends aren't exactly like real friends, but I don't know if I can be friends with him just yet.

And I'm not ready to leave Kapelle. I know I've been over this before. But the feeling still lingers.

I'm just not ready.