I'm tired of pretending. It's all I do.
I get paid to be nice and friendly and smiley, and to try as hard as I can to be extroverted, instead of the introvert that I am.
I'm tired of "I'm good," or at the very least, "I'm fine," being the expected response to "How are you?"
Why do I comply with the societal expectations? Because I know that not many people actually care. Asking how someone is, in itself, is a societal expectation.
You pretend to care about my life and well-being, and in return, I pretend that it's fine. Even if it's very not fine.
Don't worry, this isn't going to be another one of those posts where I bitch and complain about all of the reasons I'm dissatisfied with my life.
Maybe I just work too much. Maybe it's the fact that my jobs require me to occasionally pretend in order to do good work. Maybe I don't get out enough. Maybe I'm too isolated here. Maybe it's a combination of all of them.
I guess the moral of this story is that if you see me, please don't ask me how I am.
I don't want to have to lie to you.